Gu Qiudong rose to see her off.
Li SiSi looked at the empty living room and recalled their conversation just now.
Several scenes flashed through her mind, sinking deeper into her heart.
She didn’t believe Qin Zheng would come out of kindness;she had a premonition that something would happen.Li SiSi rubbed her slightly swollen forehead and went to her room.
Worried about Su Lan, she called her on the phone but received no answer.
She sent a text instead and waited by the bed for a while until it was almost dinner time.
No one was home, so she returned to the living room and asked the servants to help prepare dinner.When Gu Qiudong brought Qin Zheng back, he returned to his room, noticing Li SiSi wasn’t there.
Frowning, he called her on his phone.
Seeing the vibrating phone by the bedside, he knew she had already come home;he breathed a sigh of relief.He went to find her in the living room and saw that the kitchen door was open.
She was slicing vegetables with rolled-up sleeves.
A servant called out to her, and she turned around with a smile.
The sun shone directly on her head, blinding him momentarily as he couldn’t see her face clearly.
But for some reason, he felt relaxed, walking up to the kitchen doorway: "SiSi..."Li SiSi glanced at him coldly without much emotion, continuing to slice vegetables.
Gu Qiudong didn't mind and stood still by the door, watching her.Being stared at made Li SiSi feel uncomfortable;she stood still, tilting her head slightly upward so that tears wouldn’t fall.
Looking at the irritated Gu Qiudong, she softly said: "Gu Qiudong, I knew in my heart there was nothing between me and Jiaobei."Seeing the tears in her eyes and the restrained expression on her face, Gu Qiudong’s heart ached uncontrollably.
He gently released his grip, the room filled with silence that suddenly felt irritable.
He kicked the coat rack by the wall, making a loud noise reverberate through the quiet house.Li SiSi stood motionless, slightly raising her head to keep from crying as she looked at Gu Qiudong’s agitated figure and said softly: "Gu Qiudong, I wanted to be with Jiaobei back then.
If it weren’t for your accident, I wouldn't have married you.
You always thought I was vulgar and shameless, pushing all the blame onto me.
But deep down, you know better;because you thought it was Qin Zheng at first, only realizing later that she wasn't whom you desired.
This is why you’re lashing out on me.""Gu Qiudong, would you have been okay if I knew what my life with you would be like?If I knew how painful and unbearable it would be?I wouldn’t have married you even if I had died.
I always thought that being devoted to this family, putting in all the effort, was worth it.
But now, I see how much you cling to Qin Zheng.
You underestimate your own suffering.""Gu Qiudong, every day with you is like sinking into a swamp;it’s painful and exhausting.
Every moment of pretending to be a happy couple, protecting your dignity, worrying about the entire family...
I’m not a god, just an ordinary woman.
I deserve love and care from my husband, but not what I have now.""Gu Qiudong, you know?Now, between us, it’s like being trapped in a swamp;the deeper we get, the more painful it is," she said softly, tears streaming down her face.Silence fell as Gu Qiudong listened.